There’s a fever coming from inside. I can’t feel the ground, I can’t see the blue sky. There is no blue sky. My inspiration is gone with the distance between us. Music do not fullfil the emptiness I feel and my breath don’t want to calm down anymore. I do not dare to speak your name out loud, I know you won’t come. Mirrors don’t attract me anymore, my smile became crooked. Those scars you knew I have are now opened, my wound is burning. My heart asks for peace, I do not have my own peace anymore.
I don’t feel confortable alone and tears run when I think. I prefer not to think at all. My eyes are tired, but even though, as soon as they close, remembrance. My inspiration is gone since the day I left a part from me behind.
I became somebody else. I dream the dreams I have feared. I fear the one I am. I don’t have peace. I don’t belong to myself. I want to belong to you.
There’s a fever coming from inside, my chest burns and I know why. I miss. I don’t know where to search anymore, my tears are dry. I don’t have strenghs to fight against myself.
I never said I was brave.